His Footprints, My Heart...

Ok, I know...... even my SIL Paula has been "gently assisting me with her foot" to post again, but I promise, I'm not dead... oh, guess you picked up on that one already, huh... I WILL get back to my testimony posts, today's just not a good day for it. Today IS a good day for a cranky post. "Why?" you ask? Let's see..... BECAUSE I'M CRANKY TODAY! So, to answer my boss from about 7 years ago who just couldn't appreciate my happy disposition and asked me (in a very angry tone, might I add...) on more than one occasion "Are you ALWAYS happy????" "Well, yes, most of the time I am.... unless I'm posting a cranky post.... which probably means I'm CRANKY.... but I'm actually still quite happy!" That usually made him angrier.... then he went home and "thought about what he'd just said".... then came in the next morning trying to win me over with an "olive branch" bagel (no, not a bagel made of olive branches, way too much fiber, I'm speaking figuratively here, people!) Sorry, warned you I was cranky.....

Anyways, I'm just tired, had alot going on lately.... and.... I need advice. First, the easy one.... I want to put some of my CD on my blog, but I don't necessarily want to do it using the Audio Blogger feature. I want something like a little simulated radio of sorts in the side bar where I can put some things from my CD. Anybody know how I can do this? Oh, yeah.... preferably for FREE??

Ok, now my true dilema, which is the more difficult one, and a HUGE contributor to my crankiness (ok, the MAIN contributor). You see, there's a girl I work with, she's in her mid-20's and incredibly hyper. We get along great, but she doesn't quite get "professionalism" yet. I'm about 5 years older than her, so we get along extremely well (have I convinced you that I'm not old yet? I found a gray hair the other day.... on MY head! Yet another contributor to my crankiness.... I'm WAY too young to have a gray hair, but I digress...), much better than she does with some of the more "seasoned" co-workers. Secondly, she's not a Christian... she knows I am and truly respects that, and she'll even talk (somewhat) about God "things" with me, which I'm thrilled about! Problem is, she talks CONSTANTLY!!!!! I mean CON-STANT-LY!!!!! She asks me off the wall questions, both work related and non-work related, that I have no clue about and most people would never think to ask me because they would automatically assume that I don't have that information filed away in my head. For example,
Her: "Hey Cindy, how much are the Snoop Dog tickets for the concert in Midtown next week?" Me: "Who? Snoopy's in town? Is Linus playing for him? How 'bout Woodstock, is he coming?"
Her: "Uh, yeah, we really don't listen to the same music, do we?"

But this goes on day in and day out. I bought myself a small radio with a head set that I listen to with one ear so I can hear the phone when it rings or when people come to my desk, but that doesn't seem to work very well, a little bit (very little), but not much. I get to the point at least once a week where I want to say, "Will you PUHLEEZ just SHUT! UP!", but I don't, because satan WANTS me to do that... he'd love for me to ruin my testimony by blowing up and acting just like others around here. She takes things at work too personally, which I've tried to tell her to not sweat the small stuff.... you see, some of our co-workers don't like her and get her in trouble for things that aren't really her fault, and she kind of has a chip on her shoulder. Now, trust me enough to know that I've come to these conclusions by spending 8 hours a day with her every weekday for the last 8 months, so I'm not "jumping" here. She's one who's always ready to pick a fight, beat someone up, slash someone's tires (I think her bark is bigger than her bite, quite honestly, but she does like to put on the "tough girl" front). I'm trying to teach her that you don't have to "take" things off of people nor do you have to take the polar opposite approach to still stand up for yourself. I'm trying to show her the "high road" and how to travel there and that you will get more respect that way.... BUT..... sometimes she DRIVES. ME. NUTS!!!!!!! If it were just once in a while or even just one day a week or something, no problemo! But it's pretty much 24/7. Got any good Christian advice on this one? I want to pull her TO God, but I still have to get my work done.... and this interferes with that.
Wow, I'm feeling a little less cranky already! Lol! You guys are da best! I promise I won't be so cranky next time.....

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Today is the 3rd anniversary of my mom's Home-going. This is the last picture of me with her, taken about a month before she passed.

We were celebrating her and my dad's birthdays, which were only 3 days apart. I had completely forgotten about these pictures when I happend to take a roll of film to be developed, probably about 7 or 8 months after she passed. When I picked them up I was expecting some pictures of me and my friend Jamie and our trip to Ft. Walton Beach, Florida, but I wasn't expecting the pictures from her birthday party, and especially not one as special as the one here. Isn't God good? He gives us just what we need just when we need it!

I'll continue with my testimony in a bit, but I wanted to share my mom with you guys, and share God's wonderful gift of impeccable timing. "When you can't trace His hand, trust His heart."

Shortly after her death, the trio I was singing in at the time re-recorded a song written by Gerald Crabb and originally recorded by the Crabb Family entitled "I Sure Miss You."

Mom, you always were and always will be my hero and the most wonderful woman in the world in my eyes! I miss you so much, but I certainly know that heaven's sweeter with you there! I'm amazed every day how much of you I see in me, and I'm so thankful and grateful to have had you and dad as my parents. What more could a girl ask for? This post and the lyrics below are dedicated to you, you touched so many lives, many more than I think you ever realized!

I love you...

"I Sure Miss You"

If life could only bring again the days I took for granted when

To hear your voice was just a call away

What I’d give for just some time to say the things that slipped my mind

There’s so much now I’d really like to say

But, I could never go back when We did the things we did back then

I’ll store those precious memories in my mind

I’ll take what you’ve instilled in me and try to be all I can be

And walk the path that you have left behind.

I sure miss you, life will never be the same with you not here

Each passing day has brought much pain, with God's grace my strength remains

I sure miss you, but heaven's sweeter with you there.

The little things that seemed so small are now like gold in a memory vault

I cherish every one I have of you

Now I can see and recognize the part you played to shape my life

I often see you in the things I do

In God’s design and master plan He saw the hurting hearts of man

As we would say goodbye to those so dear

So with our family and friends we’ll be together once again

And view Heaven’s splendor hand in hand.

I sure miss you, life will never be the same with you not here

Each passing day has brought much pain with God’s grace my strength remains

I sure miss you, but heaven's sweeter with you there.

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Many of you already know, but just in case you don't, Paula of Believe in God is my sister-in-law, and today is her birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Drop by her site and wish her a happy birthday!!!

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